and when i couldnt take it anymore
i said fuckit
fuck trying anymore
i try on a fake act of i want to be considerate
but it all comes falling back on me
im not too surprised

so i take help in the shower
strip and i am in
turning the heat up i no longer feel the pang
in my chest
i feel like hot trickle down my scalp
back
ass
and legs
and i dont feel you, anymore
the hot stinging my face
like tiny darts
they wash away the tears i could never feel
like a guard

they keep me from insanity
but i still grab at the slick walls
and stare into the water at my feet
i wonder how long it will be

until this, too, has to end